Pure.
There are two beings in my life with pure hearts: Josie and Parker. First, Josie.
Josie has no agenda other than getting her needs met. She doesn't lie about it, she doesn't even *know* what manipulation is. She needs food, preferably of the boob variety. She needs to be kept clean. She needs an enormous amount of cuddling. We provide these things for her and she is happy. Very happy. Sometimes, she's pissed. And that brings me to how awesome she is: She can be SO FUCKING PISSED. She can scream in the car for like 3 minutes and M will swear it was 30. She can be so angry while you're rocking her that you start to sweat. She has a very delicate little cry until it turns evil. It's like she's going to start convulsing. Then you do the right thing: feed her, burp her, make her gas go away: soothe her in some way and in an instant she's ok. There's no grudge. One second the world is going to end and the next: you're awesome. She's not mad that it took you an hour to make it better. She's just happy you did. No hard feelings, Mom! You tried, Dad, and that's what counts!
I don't know any grownups like that.
The next is Parker. He's such a trooper. He and Josie got off to a bad start. He was confused and scared about this smelly loud creature that is now in our bed while he's on the floor. M brings him on walks almost daily and that helps, but this week M is not here and I'm alone with Josie and Parker and my milk supply is kicking my ass (feeding fine, pumping is not happening) and I just can't. But he's cool. He needs food, he needs to play a bit and to sleep. That's a pure heart. He's also cool with hanging in Josie's room while we play on the floor. He's totally ok with it.
I don't know any people like that.
We're all learning how to do this. Josie is 10 weeks tomorrow. I can't believe how fast this is going. And for the first time in Blog History, I'm going to post a picture of myself. M took it a few weeks back, and I hope it is sufficient to those who have asked via email to see pics. I saw a picture of me at my wedding yesterday and I was sort of grossed out. I'm down 30 lbs. since then, and it's a HUGE difference in those pictures. Anyway, here is a pic of me and the girl:
